Monday, August 25, 2008

Forever dancing for Jesus in my heart






(May 25, 2011)


Back in 2008 I danced too much. Was way too hard on myself. Wouldn't always let myself just
let go, relax, and dance not for anyone and not for myself, but for Jesus.

... But even back then, I knew that. And for a lot of the time I truly
would let go, completely enjoying the glorious, glorious time with Him.

That is why I danced.
That is why it felt wonderful.

It was like
a glimpse of Heaven. A glimpse of dancing with Jesus.
Praising Him,
thinking about His great love.
I danced to give others a chance to see His love and beauty.

To praise and worship Him for all to see!!!


... With every limb of my body, and every ounce of energy (which was A LOT of energy), I put my all into glorifying His name through my movements.



... And now today, I am so thankful for all those hours I spent with Him. With the beautiful beautiful songs about Him. I would spend hours upon hours deeply thinking about all the words of Christian songs as I danced to them. I still hunger to listen to, sing, and dance to more and more beautiful Christian songs.


... Lately I am going back to my old CDs to listen. The lyrics fill me with so much joy and peace. There is no room for any anxiety or fear.
It all melts away. Thinking about His grace and giving Him all my stupid fears whenever they try to consume me seriously makes me feel like I am on anxiety medication, even though I haven't taken any kind of medication for a few years!! I feel filled with an overwhelming, lasting peace beyond my understanding.



And a few times this summer, I have danced.


Danced around the apartment.

Hardcore.
With everything I have.



Not for me.
Not for anyone else. But for Jesus.
Loving every precious moment with Him.



No matter where I am, when I think about this song I used to dance around to back in 2008, my heart swells with joy and love for Jesus. I loved Him back then, but
now I have been captivated by His grace. Every song I used to dance to and sing means more and more every day, as I fall harder and harder, deeper and deeper, in love with my Jesus. As I read His Word more and more.


I'm
overwhelmed by His forgiveness. For me, a selfish, horrible sinner.

His mercy is
beautiful.




Here is a song I danced to back then. The words came strait from my heart to Jesus then, and mean
even more when I sing them in my heart to Jesus now.







"I will understand
If they can't comprehend

All of the time we spend

'Cause it's beautiful


When You speak to me

Whispering softly

Love sweet melodies
That are beautiful


I'm in love with You
So in love with You

And they just don't know what You do to me


I'm in love with You

So in love with You

And they'll never know

What You do to me


Clothing me in righteousness
Lord, I must confess
I hold You to Your promises
That are beautiful

You've become my everything
Your presence makes me weak
'Til there are no words to speak
But "Oh so beautiful"


I'm in love with You

So in love with You

And they just don't know what You do to me


I'm in love with You

So in love with You

And they'll never know

What You do to me



They don't really know what You do to me
They don't understand how You make me free
When we're all alone and it's me and You
There's not enough expression for the things You do


I'm in love with You

So in love with You

And they just don't know what You do to me


I'm in love with You

So in love with You

And they'll never know

What You do to me
"



...


Right now, I am so happy with where God has me at MSUM, out living and loving instead of in dancing all the time. But no matter where I am and what I am doing, I am often dancing in my heart for Jesus...


And one day we will dance in Eternity. :)