Why?

Where ever I am, I am never satisfied. I'm always unhappy.

With myself, with my situation.

Dreaming. ... Dreaming about the future.
The things I want to change.

The things I want to be better.
The things I want to do.
The things I want to strive for.


The better times to come.


Why?

Why can't I just be satisfied right now?

I have Jesus.
Right here.
Right now.


And He is all I need.


No matter how hard the current situation might seem,
No matter how stupid I've been or am being.

No matter how good and better the future may seem....

He is here! He is what I need.
Not improvement.
Not a different situation or scenario.

Not some amazing future day I can dream of.


I need JESUS.
Grace.
Love.
Peace.
Salvation.


No matter how hard the day may seem.
No matter how crappy a situation, how scary, how UNFUN, He is with me. He forgives me. He loves me. He is holding me.

That should be enough.
Enough to make me smile. To bring His peace and joy. To change me and break me down.



Please please please help me Jesus.
Rid me of my selfish self.

Help me be satisfied by You and You alone.

“Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will He clothe you, O you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek His kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

“Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in Heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

-Luke 12:27-34